last year i did a 365 project. well, 366, leap year, whatever. anyway, i started this project that seemed insane and finished it. some nights i’d be laying in bed, nearly asleep, and realise–OH SHIT–that i’d forgotten to do a photo! that’s how you end up with gems like this one. but whatever, all that was important was seeing my project through till the end. i did not miss a single day and felt so proud!
then a funny thing happened. i started a second 365 and it has not fared so well. within the first few days, i started missing photos. i’ve missed probably a week of photos. one was in stockholm, when i forgot to take a photo and then left my camera at the hostel and then got drunk and slept somewhere else. one was on the last day of my trip, when i had ample opportunities and none of them seemed right and finally i just forgot. one was a day when a friend reminded me ‘don’t forget to take your photo today!’ if i stopped going the first time i forgot a photo, i would have missed out on so many rad photos, because without this project, i rarely take self-portraits. i would’ve missed out on epic shots in reykjavik, stockholm, berlin, istanbul. i would’ve missed out on silly photos with my friends and my cats.
so, yeah, my 365 is not going to be perfect. it’s going to be flawed, missing photos, not a full representation of a year in my life. but you know what? i’m so glad that i’m pushing through. it’s worth having your project turn out a little differently than expected, rather than quitting and having no project at all.
it’s so easy to quit the moment we slip up. the first few times i tried to go vegetarian, i failed. sometimes i try to do yoga every day and it just doesn’t happen. instead of allowing that slip to be an excuse to quit trying, to quit pushing, one must just get back on the horse. keep going. forgive ourselves for being imperfect, and continue on our path to art, healthy eating, healthy living, positive self-talk, whatever it is that’s important to us.