OKAY, yes, it is so fucking cheesy that i am writing a post about a holiday created by a sitcom, BUT WHATEVER.
i am a florist. right now, that means my counter has been inundated by dudes seeking to pick up the perfect valentine’s day flowers for their lady consorts. i have sold $200 bouquets of roses and small, sweet arrangements of single orchids in bud vases. as a valentine’s day hater, working through this holiday is particularly torturous! it’s forced and insincere.
although i have been seeing a couple ladies for dates, it’s nothing serious/committed/valentine’s day worthy, and i don’t want it to be. i love having the focus on the relationships with my friends–and holy fuck, have my friends ever been wonderful to me in the past week. i spent a sweet morning tea with sammi and meshell; saw a movie with saby on thursday; sammi took me to a vaudeville show on friday; malloreigh & kaylie surprised me with lunch at work on saturday; courtney and i have been going back and forth planning our trip to portland together; marlo has been giving me a tonne of advice/direction/leadership on something we’re both learning about; i received a delightful package from rose, all the way from germany!; trading thoughts on body image with rose and jenanne and krista; went to the gym with jill (who also gives me real, satisfying hugs when i am down). so many of the things on this list used to be the exclusive territory of my husband/other dating partners, and it feels so freeing to have them met by friends instead.
HOLY CATS, you guys. i cannot believe how lucky i am to have this rich, deep variety of friendships. i feel so fulfilled. in one week alone i’ve been the recipient of so many sweet, thoughtful gestures and intimate, happy moments. not a single one of them was related to dating. in moments like this, feeling so loved and supported by my circle of lady friends, i can’t see how i would feel the desire to be in a relationship again. admittedly, the friendly-love i experience is much different than the feelings of restriction and suffocation i link to romantic partnerships, but i am generally very happy and not lonely–why would i ever want to give up my freedom and friend-time?
so, happy galentine’s day. thank you, every one of my friends (even if i didn’t mention you here; i was just reflecting on the past week) . you inspire me and make my life so incredible!
fuck valentines day; this is the real shit, i swear.