trust30/9: procrastination

“What I must do is all that concerns me, not what the people think. This rule, equally arduous in actual and in intellectual life, may serve for the whole distinction between greatness and meanness. It is the harder, because you will always find those who think they know what is your duty better than you know I. – Ralph Waldo Emerson

What’s one project that you’ve been sitting on and thinking about but haven’t made progress on? What’s stopping you? What would happen if you actually went for it and did it?”

i am so guilty on this one–about a year ago, after i began reading tarot more, i started to see my friend maggie as the strength card. it seems like she could make it through anything in life and come up looking witchy-beautiful, laughing and ready for the road ahead, and that really fits with the image of strength (a young woman opening the jaws of a lion)

i envisioned my version of the card that would feature her in it. i began sketching it out, over and over, but was never satisfied. the card was first envisioned as something painted–but my skill in acrylic has not grown much because i don’t have passion for it. i don’t watercolour as much as i sew. recently it seemed to be a good idea to make a largish sewn piece with maggie as strength, based off the card/all my sketches. i have been holding back on it so long because i’m afraid to do it and screw up–never mind that in artistic stuff, it’s ok to mess up and start a new piece! the internal critic overrides that logic.

a few weeks ago, another friend (malloreigh) motivated me and i got started on the sewn-felt-painting version of strength. i’m just crawling along, finishing another large piece before i throw myself into maggie’s version, but i like where it’s heading!! thanks mal for pushing me into it, and maggie (as always) for being a muse. i am going to have this shit finished & ready for an art show next month! YES


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